Wanting to be better

I always want to be better than I was yesterday. And even better tomorrow than I was today. I struggle a bit with feeling good about what I did, and wanting to be better. It's easy to paint a picture of a perfect life on a blog. And it's also easy to read other people's blogs and compare your life to their blog life. Talk about comparing your worst to someone Sunday's best. A few people put real life on their blogs, but for the most part you don't really want to blog about a fight with your husband, disciplining your kids, or gaining weight. Anyway, so I was going to write this post about how today my kids only watched 1 hour of TV, and I stayed away from the internet for most of the day, and spent quality time doing fun things like making Reindeer food, and putting up our Nativity for family night.

But really I spend way too much time on the computer. I spend far too many mornings plopping my kids in front of the TV, and sitting in my PJ's on the laptop. Of course it's justified because they are watching PBS kids. I mean really it doesn't get more educational than that, right? So I decided last night I'm only going to come on the computer when the kids are sleeping. And I didn't even really do that today. Mostly I did, but I kept coming to check just "one thing".  But I realized I'm going to get to a point where my kids are going to be in school and I'm going to miss this time I could have been spending with them. So now I'm trying to come up with creative things to do when it's way too freezing to go outside. That doesn't involve the TV. Yeah, it's not so easy. Especially when my kids have the attention span of gnats. Or toddlers. Which is probably shorter than gnats.

I watched this video on Youtube about this mom with two kids with special needs. The video was very inspirational. But the one line that stood out the most to me was when she said, "I'm a mom, and I take my job seriously." I really haven't felt like I take my job as a mom seriously. So I started today. And I'm exhausted. And now I'm rambling. So yeah. I'm trying to be better. I should probably start with the dishes...