Eateth not the bread of idleness.

So this morning I was in a bad mood. Did you read my last post about my night last night? It was not the best not sleep I've had in my life. And it was preceded by 4 or 5 nights of less than 5ish hours of sleep. I can take one or two bad nights, but after that I am just a grump. So this morning Aaron said it's not very often he gets worse sleep than me, and he coudn't wait to come home and take a nap. And my blood boiled. I SLEEP THE WORST! WERE YOU UP WHEN ABIGAIL WAS CRYING AT 4:00AM?! DID YOU GET YOUR BOOTY OUT OF BED AT 5:30 WHEN OLIVIA WOKE UP FOR THE DAY?

And then I was sorry. Because remember all the puke cleaning from last night and whatnot? And he probably did sleep worse than me last night. And it's not a competition. We're on the same team.

But I was still grumpy. And I decided I would spend today in my pajamas and not do anything productive at all, except keep my kids alive.

I did read my scriptures. And I read Proverbs 31 verses 10-31. Here are some of my thoughts I had while reading.

10¶Who can find a avirtuous bwoman? for her price is far above rubies. This was in ancient biblical times. If it was hard to find a virtuous woman THAN, I imagine today her value is even higher.

11The heart of her husband doth safely atrust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil. I think this means he knows she won't cheat on him, and he won't cheat on her. I think.

12She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life. Like not biting his head off for saying he got a worse night's sleep than you.

13She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with herahands. Okay... buy cute fabric at Joann's and make stuff. I can do that.

14She is like the merchants’ ships; she bringeth her food from afar. Grocery shopping?

15She ariseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens. Yeah, that whole riseth while it is yet night is pretty familiar.

16She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard. Gardens?

17She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms.

18She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night. Shop all night? Again though, the whole her candle goeth not out by night is sounding pretty familiar.

19She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold theadistaff. Sew. Okay got it.

20She stretcheth out her hand to the apoor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.

21She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet. Go play in the snow with the kids today. No problem.

22She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her aclothing is silk and purple. Wear more purple?

23Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land. Have you seen Aaron sitting in the gates? Yeah he sits with the best of them. I really have no idea what this means.

24She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant. Ohh, pretty sure I'm being commanded to open an etsy shop.

25Strength and honour are her aclothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come.

26She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of akindness. If I don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all. I should work on that.

27She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of aidleness. And this is the verse that struck a chord. I think I eat kind of a heck of a lot of the bread of idleness. Like how many hours do I spend on facebook, watching tv, reading blogs, etc.

28Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also,and he praiseth her. PRAISE ME!

29Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all. Me? Who was this written to? I'd love to be her.

30Favour is deceitful, and abeauty is vain: but a woman thatbfeareth the Lord, she shall be praised. UAdd a Note

31Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.

Wow. I've read these verses before. But something really touched me today. I've been focusing a lot on beauty. Not so much on fearing the Lord. I pondered for a few minutes about what it means to be a virtuous woman. And then I also realized I'm raising two daughters. I feel like I've been an example of idleness more than an example of a virtuous woman. I know I'm not the worst mom in the world. I also know I'm not the best. And I can try harder. And be better. And hopefully raise my daughters to be virtuous women.

So anyway, I decided not to spend the day in my pajama's. And to really look well to the ways of my household. And I taught Olivia how to fold laundry. She was so proud of herself for folding pants all by herself. So I'm going to excuse myself from the cyber world today and work on that.

Thanks for reading my ramblings. If you made it this far you deserve a medal of some sort.

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